The snowball started the day after fathers day.
I’ve never really acknowledged that day. It’s always been reserved for my mum. I didn’t have a father figure growing up. Now that my dad is dead, I won’t be able to change that on this plane of existence. This makes me both sad and angry. That day, I didn’t want to be around people. I left my last class of the day early, went home to my cave and went to sleep.
Tuesday was frustrating because we were given a test with vague instructions. Finishing that test made me feel discouraged and disappointed. That same day, I got those marks I was disappointed in (but I was being silly).
Today I was given instructions on what we were actually supposed to do for the test. It was not how I initially interpreted it. The same went for everyone else in my class. It was frustrating.
Right now I’m thinking, how can I fix this?
I’m going to study more. It’s like… Having a messy work space. When you clean it up then you can be organised and think more clearly. That’s what I’m going to do. Tidy up my work space before it gets overwhelming.
I can do this… Right?