Innate invader

Metaphysical heart burn. It feels like a hair ball in your chest. It’s doused in menthol flavoured alcohol. It burns but it’s not really hot. It’s not firey. Just a cold.. burning sensation. Your heart is bound by thorn stricken vines. It doesn’t hurt. Its just irritating.

It’s been years since I’ve felt this consistently.

Dread.
Anticipation.
Dread again.

The feeling is always innate. The catalyst being life. Being responsible and having initiative has been exciting for the last month.. I’m starting to feel overwhelmed even though I know I’m doing well.

I’m scared I’m going to sabotage myself.

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